DearYou :)

Assalamualaikum .

heyy dear readers and you . yeah , you :) today's post i would like to talk in english . yes , my favourite subject . i don't know why . to improve my english skill maybe . just let me yaa . and sorry for the broken english . people do make mistakes .

yesterday , i felt like i lost another part of me , for the second time . i felt like half of my soul had flied away . do you understand ? ohh no . only me who understand myself . yesterday , i got a broken heart again . by the same person who did that . he's the heartbreaker but sometimes he is the reason i put smile on my face . i still remember how heartbroken i was by yesterday . yes , girls do cried when the boys they love leave them . and that's what happened to me . i cried yesterday . tears do rolled down . but , i controlled them from falling further . because i don't want people in this house know that i'm crying . then i stopped and said to myself , why did you cry for him ? for the last 3 months ago , you are lonely strong without him . but what happened to you now ? he just left you about a minute ago , with a promise that both of you can still friends , and now you cry ? he don't deserve you at all . please be strong ain , i know you can survive alone without him . yes , i have to be strong ! but , those tears , maybe it meant that i don't want to lose him again , for the second time .

ALLAH IS THE MOST JUSTICE ! 3 months ago i left you , yes . i know i'm a mean person . without any explanation , just a few simple cruel word from me that could hurted you a lot . i know how heartbroken you was by that time . i'm sorry . but i have too . i want to be an obedient daughter and student to my mother and the teachers . and yesterday , you did the same thing to me . i understand . ALLAH IS THE MOST JUSTICE ! that why He wanted an equity among us . 3 months ago i've hurted you , and now you've hurted me back . yea , thats fair .

by 17.11.2011 at 2.09 a.m to 2.29 a.m .

you sent me 3 messages . let me said that those messages told all your feelings for me . after read those messages , i felt like , whoaa ! is this for real ? i replied those messages with full of questionary questions in my mind . this is not him . i know it already . he is not the kind of boy who surrender easily to his feelings . to me , he have a strong mentality and a viscous heart . that's why he can easily handle my temperament before . and that why i adore him much . and on the date , we officially made up again . with a word , i will appreciate you more than before . and thanks for this second chance , i won't waste it . thank you . and then i asked you an educated question , hey why do you want me again ? you replied me , because i never met a girl who understand me better than the way you do . and i smile and said to myself , i am lucky to be an understanding one and to have you back in my life .

but suddenly by yesterday , we broke up again , for the second time . you told me that you prefer you own life before than what you have now . i understand . and by that , we made our own way again . yeah , it may hurt me but it won't hurt you . for the last time , i asked you . can i wait for you ? maybe no . just look for another . i only replied it with simple one and a smiley smiling face . dear , when ' maybe ' does'nt guarantee anything , i'll keep waiting for you until a time that God has destined someone else better for me than you . until that day come , i will always keep waiting for you :)

dear you , thanks for those 265 days we've hold on together . i will remember each of those bittersweetsour memories :'] thank you , you .

when you smiled at me , i will smile back at you

but i wont let you know that i'm crying inside .

sincerely me .